You Know That "Standing on the Diving Board" Feeling?

It's the rush of knowing that you are going to step into the insecurity of falling
and then crash into the safety net of weightlessness.

It's the thought, plan or idea
Without action

Your body is screaming
Take the plunge!

But all of your insides
Every single organ
Are resisting the unfamiliar feeling

This is what I call the standing on the diving board feeling
Not the climbing, planning or standing
But the staring down, leaping and landing

This is the diving board season
Throwing our worries to the ground
We jump off for a future that's pleasin

Thoughts run through as if they've taken action
But we are still looking up
The blueprints aren't matching
Because on the ground fear has us stuck

This is the diving board season
Get ourselves out of the way
It's time to find that bigger reason
To push us past delay

The idea balloons are passing by
If we don't jump they'll move on
We stand at the edge to reach and try

Leap into the unfamiliarity
Let the thought take you high
Catch the breeze of reality
Before it passes by

Ever feel like no one is in the same shoes as you?

Have you ever asked anyone?
Ever?
What if I told you that you and I are in the same place ?
How would that make you feel ?
See, I think that we have been fooled onto thinking we need to know what we are doing for.. The rest of our lives ?
Sounds kinda silly when I say it like that.

It's as if there is some test with predetermined answers we need to figure out..

Life is not a class forcing us to know what has been said
or expecting us to be able to know what it wants us to say or do or think.

It's not failing because we didn't memorize well enough
or work hard enough to remember everything.

Was it just me or are English classes bogus?
Maybe just me.

Think about this:
Who is my audience, who is reading what I am writing.
Do I care what this audience has to think about what I have to say ?

Who says these people grading you have the best opinion and get to measure you based on a curriculum?
Who even came up with that horrid system ?
You may or may not agree.
But.
Someone had to create that thing and
 in that case isn't it biased ?

There really is no way to measure an individual's abilities in relation to this one curriculum.

Even though I would spend countless hours researching and writing I "wrote too much" or had the wrong opinion of what a story meant or what the author's purpose was (always hated that one).

Nope, you're wrong. Got to align your thinking better next time. You must think wrong Gloria.

I have been taught too much that what I think is wrong and not enough of how to take that thought to form and articulate it to others clearly.

Why am I talking about this?

Because I want you to know it's okay to have your own ideas, opinions, thought and biases.

I want to encourage you to become stronger in them. Question them. Challenge them. Don't get too comfortable with them.
Change them.
Adapt them.
But overall allow them to formulate.
I encourage you to become stronger in them.
Spend time talking about it to people you care about or write it down if you don't want to talk about it.
Read it.
See if it really represents what you believe and can be understood.

if you need guidance
Ask yourself questions and answer them.

What do I believe or think about (enter thought here)? Starts you off.
Why do I believe or think this? Gets to the reason.
What influenced me to think this way? Gets rid of bias or determines neutrality.
How has it changed you? Determines importance.
And on and on..

You are not wrong.
You have the freedom to think, believe, create and fail.
Fail? What?? I can do that?
Yes!! You can and you should!
Life was not created to expect you to know what it wants from you.

Lfie is not tseitng or etpxecnig aynihntg form you
Hey, got that one didn't you.

Life is not testing or expecting anything from you...
Life is not testing or expecting anything from you.

Think freely, be free.