Thursday, June 4, 2015
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
An Update on Life in "The Cycle of Passion Killing"
For a blog titled "Freedom Through Passion" I'm not sure I'm really living up to the weight of this name right now.
In my last post I mentioned how I was struggling with the balance of my desires and how I want my ambitions to flourish from a place of passion instead more than reward.
But to be honest, I have no idea what I'm doing with my life 99% of the time. Sometimes I feel alive and other times, more than most, I feel I have placed myself in a routine because I feel I've failed at the other things I have pursued.
I've read and agree with the philosophy that failing over and over is actually a success and the character needed to be a true entrepreneur. Right now I feel I am stuck in a place of fear of failing again-but my soul beckons me so often whispering words like risk, adventure, independence and invention.
My soul is crying out to me, but I've tuned out it's voice so it decided to scream at me and make me completely restless. Thank you soul.
I am a woman of ambition and invention and when I am not in a place that heightens and supports this it's like chopping off the head of a flower or moving an outstretching bud into darkness. It suffocates me.
Sometimes, we need to slow down and take a look at our lives and not make excuses for denying our passions. These are my excuses right now: Money. Support. Community. Disappointing others. Past failures. Even writing them down feels pathetic because I know that the worst thing that could happen is I quit my job, lose a reliable check and a couple friends. But the truth is if I were honest with myself I really don't believe things could be different.
Honestly, I am not sure what to do with myself right now. It comes in cycles and every time I enter in I convince myself this time it will be different. Here's my cycle:
In my last post I mentioned how I was struggling with the balance of my desires and how I want my ambitions to flourish from a place of passion instead more than reward.
But to be honest, I have no idea what I'm doing with my life 99% of the time. Sometimes I feel alive and other times, more than most, I feel I have placed myself in a routine because I feel I've failed at the other things I have pursued.
I've read and agree with the philosophy that failing over and over is actually a success and the character needed to be a true entrepreneur. Right now I feel I am stuck in a place of fear of failing again-but my soul beckons me so often whispering words like risk, adventure, independence and invention.
My soul is crying out to me, but I've tuned out it's voice so it decided to scream at me and make me completely restless. Thank you soul.
I am a woman of ambition and invention and when I am not in a place that heightens and supports this it's like chopping off the head of a flower or moving an outstretching bud into darkness. It suffocates me.
Sometimes, we need to slow down and take a look at our lives and not make excuses for denying our passions. These are my excuses right now: Money. Support. Community. Disappointing others. Past failures. Even writing them down feels pathetic because I know that the worst thing that could happen is I quit my job, lose a reliable check and a couple friends. But the truth is if I were honest with myself I really don't believe things could be different.
Honestly, I am not sure what to do with myself right now. It comes in cycles and every time I enter in I convince myself this time it will be different. Here's my cycle:
I'm not sure when this cycle will break, but I do know that I need to commit to an idea and pursue it without the "Feel like a failure" phase sucking me back in. I cannot let myself enter "The Cycle of Passion Killing" anymore.
Right not I am in the "Get sick of having a job" phase. For me, "The Cycle of Passion Killing" averages from 3-5 months. How do you kill an entrepreneurial spirit? You can't. Nearly impossible unless you want to live a life of no happiness, no passion, no adventure and most of all-no life.
So.... what now? I am asking myself the same thing. I wanted to write this mainly to help me process what's going on, but also to reach out to others like me for support and encouragement. What would you do in my place? How do you keep yourself from entering "The Cycle of Passion Killing"?
We shall see what is next on this adventure of life! I have ideas and other things I am pursuing right now aside from my 9-5 and next time I get to the "No immediate results" phase I am going to do whatever it takes to break out of this cycle and enter in the Passion cycle of awesomeness!
That's all for now folks. No real call to action really. Mainly just an update on how I'm feeling in life right about now. I hope this reaches some of you and calls you to action to live out a life of passion, purpose, and meaning- in whatever way that relates to you in your own Cycle of Passion Killing.
It is time to break free family!
Friday, June 20, 2014
20 Year Old Ramblings About Living
Just relax.
Sometimes it seems like every situation in life right now is a do or die type thing. It's like whatever idea I have must be done or else my "claim to fame", we will call it, is doomed.
When in reality why do I actually care so much about trying to create some sort of phenomenal, revolutionary thing that will change people's lives. Whether that be a product, way of thinking, or whatever else my brain likes to spew out.
I have a hint of an idea that it has something to do with a way of feeling important. Which makes me wonder- How is it that I gain this feeling of importance? Why is it so important to me? Where do I direct this desire so that it can be satiated?
Let me clarify a little bit.
I think that it is ridiculous that I am believing I need to gain some sort of importance in the first place. I am perfectly capable of being important without any strings attached to some plan or goal that I am achieving. It has made me question some things about myself. Is honesty okay here? Ok, cool. Glad we got that out of the way.
First off, I want to know what my intentions are behind the things that I do. What is the point of the ideas that I come up with that I want to move forward with? Sometimes it is out of my passion to create and other times it is in hopes that I will reap some reward- Which is why it has been difficult for me to stick to one thing that I didn't get immediate reward from.
More than anything, in this pre adulthood (is it still pre?) I believe it is important that we don't get so caught up in our plans and future goals and create a sort of tunnel vision until we reach where we anticipate going. Time will continue moving at the same pace it always has. No matter how much it seems like it flies-I promise 1 day still = 24 hours. So let's stop worrying so much. Whatever the heck we are doing right now is definitely not ensured to be the end-all-be-all for the rest of our lives so lets chillax a bit more.
I guess here is where I should suggest some sort of philosophy or advice. Well, this is what I think.
Take risks. Don't be completely blind about it, but if you are like me and you have an opportunity and desire that takes you out of college. Life is not going to end and you can always go back if things change and you want some sort of certification. In my opinion, college is great for those who know they need it or who have know idea what they need.
Continue to invest into yourself. To me, this means reading, listening and doing things that are new, fresh, exciting and awesome, of course. I listen to a podcast by an inspiring guy, Tim Ferriss, who has revolutionized many areas of my thinking. Recently, I listened to a ten minute podcast he created about the 9 Habits to Stop Now-The Not-To-Do List. I put into practice a few of them today and had half the amount of stress and twice the amount of productivity. Score. I wonder what today would have been like if I didn't listen to that yesterday. It's important to continue keeping your mind active and not stuck in routine mode doing and acting out of habit.
Schedule time to do things you enjoy. You are never too busy or too tired to be with people you care about. Hit em up and plan a date. Don't wait for them to get ahold of you. Take some initiative. Maybe even make a list of some stuff you have been wanting to do, but always putting off because you're "too busy". Take a night to yourself to read a good book or invest into a hobby-playing music, writing, drawing, playing a sport, going to the gym. It will be worth it, just get over the feeling of not wanting to do it and do it. It's just a feeling and it's only temporary.
That's all I got for now. Check back for some updates and the ever-so-interesting like of Gloria and her 20 year old ramblings about living.
Sometimes it seems like every situation in life right now is a do or die type thing. It's like whatever idea I have must be done or else my "claim to fame", we will call it, is doomed.
When in reality why do I actually care so much about trying to create some sort of phenomenal, revolutionary thing that will change people's lives. Whether that be a product, way of thinking, or whatever else my brain likes to spew out.
I have a hint of an idea that it has something to do with a way of feeling important. Which makes me wonder- How is it that I gain this feeling of importance? Why is it so important to me? Where do I direct this desire so that it can be satiated?
Let me clarify a little bit.
I think that it is ridiculous that I am believing I need to gain some sort of importance in the first place. I am perfectly capable of being important without any strings attached to some plan or goal that I am achieving. It has made me question some things about myself. Is honesty okay here? Ok, cool. Glad we got that out of the way.
First off, I want to know what my intentions are behind the things that I do. What is the point of the ideas that I come up with that I want to move forward with? Sometimes it is out of my passion to create and other times it is in hopes that I will reap some reward- Which is why it has been difficult for me to stick to one thing that I didn't get immediate reward from.
More than anything, in this pre adulthood (is it still pre?) I believe it is important that we don't get so caught up in our plans and future goals and create a sort of tunnel vision until we reach where we anticipate going. Time will continue moving at the same pace it always has. No matter how much it seems like it flies-I promise 1 day still = 24 hours. So let's stop worrying so much. Whatever the heck we are doing right now is definitely not ensured to be the end-all-be-all for the rest of our lives so lets chillax a bit more.
I guess here is where I should suggest some sort of philosophy or advice. Well, this is what I think.
Take risks. Don't be completely blind about it, but if you are like me and you have an opportunity and desire that takes you out of college. Life is not going to end and you can always go back if things change and you want some sort of certification. In my opinion, college is great for those who know they need it or who have know idea what they need.
Continue to invest into yourself. To me, this means reading, listening and doing things that are new, fresh, exciting and awesome, of course. I listen to a podcast by an inspiring guy, Tim Ferriss, who has revolutionized many areas of my thinking. Recently, I listened to a ten minute podcast he created about the 9 Habits to Stop Now-The Not-To-Do List. I put into practice a few of them today and had half the amount of stress and twice the amount of productivity. Score. I wonder what today would have been like if I didn't listen to that yesterday. It's important to continue keeping your mind active and not stuck in routine mode doing and acting out of habit.
Schedule time to do things you enjoy. You are never too busy or too tired to be with people you care about. Hit em up and plan a date. Don't wait for them to get ahold of you. Take some initiative. Maybe even make a list of some stuff you have been wanting to do, but always putting off because you're "too busy". Take a night to yourself to read a good book or invest into a hobby-playing music, writing, drawing, playing a sport, going to the gym. It will be worth it, just get over the feeling of not wanting to do it and do it. It's just a feeling and it's only temporary.
That's all I got for now. Check back for some updates and the ever-so-interesting like of Gloria and her 20 year old ramblings about living.
Friday, February 7, 2014
8 Things to Do to Overcome Depression
I can only even write this list because I have thought I was depressed three times in my life. At one point I thought I would need medicine, but I wanted to make it without it.So, I did. And so can you. I understand the mindset of wanting to disappear, being lonely beyond any hope, and feeling like it will never end.
It becomes an endless thought cycle that you can become
comfortable in.
You have to break it. Act unnatural and get uncomfortable.
Get out of the familiar acceptance of the depressing thoughts. I know what it’s
like to feel like nothing. You feel nothing and nothing anyone can do
can make you feel anything.
But the thing is, they are all lies. Everything in your head
is not true if it’s taking you into depression. You believe the lies. The truth
is true and you should believe it. You are valued, much better than you think
you are, appreciated, and awesome even if nobody notices!
Know that whatever thoughts you choose dwell in you will stamp
as true-harmful or beneficial.
So here’s to getting uncomfortable and out of the familiar grave
clothes:
1. You are not going to want to do anything on this list.
That’s precisely why it is going to work. If you don’t like
it-that one’s for you.
2. Tell yourself it’s a lie.
Out loud, in your mind, to someone else. Make sure you
verify and believe that your depressive thinking is not true.
3. Speak the truth to yourself.
Read a book, the Bible, or a confidence statement out loud.
Sing an empowering Beyonce song- anything to get you to speak out the truth
(even if you don’t believe it yet, you will). Your words will interrupt your
thoughts and keep you from playing in the pits.
4. Think about someone else.
Call, text, message a friend that makes you happy. And no,
not that person that makes you feel special. A real friend you couldn’t live
without. Let them know you appreciate them. Get outside of thinking about
yourself and your situation is healthier than you know.
5. Write a list of things you are grateful for.
Don’t just think about it. Write it down. And then even read
it out load.
6. Get around people.
Go anywhere there are people. If you live with your family
go sit with them. Get to a bookstore or coffee shop. Walk around the
neighborhood. Get out of isolation and switch up your normal routine.
7. Get moving.
Write a song, draw a picture, play an instrument, knit a
scarf, take your dog on a walk (or your neighbors if you don’t have one), make
a thank you or birthday card for someone before you forget and it’s too late.
8. Anything else you don’t want to do, but keep you from crawling into bed, isolating yourself, thinking and feeling lonely.
Dwell in the truthful thoughts, think upon them, speak them
out and you will become them.
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
10 Things to Try Before Taking Out a Student Loan
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The amount student loan debt is hovering over credit card debt in the US.
The commitment to massive amounts of debt was not an option for me. All I have to say is one needs a break in life to think and
decide things for themselves. And we can!! Without much negative consequence in
today's world.
1. Start a Kickstarter for something you care about
2. Start a blog. I’m sure there is something you know more
about than me
3. Travel somewhere you've always wanted to go. Heck at
least if you took a loan out for this you’d be 100% sure it was something you
want to do.
4. Study something you are genuinely interested in. Books, videos, seminars, audios, whatever you like!
5. Take up an fitness class. I'd recommend Yoga. If it hasn't changed your life yet, it will.
6. Learn how to invest. You'll be way more ahead of most of your peers mentally and financially.
7. Get a job or internship in an industry you are interested in. You will make connections and learn about the needs of the industry.
8. Create something. Maybe sell it. You know Etsy and Shopify.
9. Write a book.
10. Do whatever you want for one year. Come on you've been in school for forever now. Take a break and explore the passions you have been suppressing.
Just start with one and see where it takes you.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
5 Successful Entrepreneurial Women
On the list of 100 Top Entrepreneurs Who Succeeded Without a College Degree seven of them were women.
There are just those stories that you hear about that make you wanna shout "HEY I CAN DO THAT TOO!"
I was seeking out on the web specifically women entrepreneurs and i'll admit it has been a difficult task. Keeping in mind rights have changed over time, I understand why most of the Top 100 list is men.
I support, listen, aspire and learn from many entrepreneurial men. While equally, I want women to be empowered to step up in the entrepreneurial world and inspire more women. It could create a wonderful snowball effect of beauty ;) Sometimes, there's nothing like hearing it from a lady.
Food Network cooking show star, food industry entrepreneur, with no formal culinary arts training. Never attended college.
Ashley Qualls
+Ashley Qualls
@AshBo
Founder of Whateverlife.com, left high school at the age of 15 to devote herself to building her website business. She was more than a million dollars by 17.
Gabrielle Berstein
+Gabrielle Bernstein
@Gabbyberstein
Bestselling author, influential thinker, Youtube vlogger and Founder of Herfuture.com. She grew up in New York and attended Syracuse University with a degree in Theater.
Marie Forleo
@marieforleo
Wrote the bestselling book, Make Every Man Want You: How To Be So Irresistible You’ll Barely Keep from Dating Yourself published in 13 languages. Marie has been interviewed by Tony Robbins as one of the world’s leading lifestyle and online marketing experts and mentored young business owners at Richard Branson’s Centre of Entrepreneurship in South Africa. Danielle Laporte
+Danielle LaPorte
@DanielleLaPorte
Creator of the Desire Map: A guide to Creating Goals With Soul. She is passionate about creating a life that we love living. she skipped out on college to learn what she was really interested in and it brought her to the place she is now-inspiring, encouraging and motivating other ladies.
Other great resources:
Monday, January 27, 2014
3 of the Best Professors on Life: James Altucher, Anthony Robbins, Timothy Ferriss
Master of Finance & Believer Non-Traditional Ways of Educating and Succeeding
Claim to Fame: Stockpickr: a financial social network, Time
Magazine’s 50 Best Websites of 2007, sold in 2007 for $10 million.
History: Bachelor’s Degree in Computer Science at Cornell
University, Doctoral candidate at Carnegie Mellon University
Influence: Being a master of finance gave Altucher much wisdom
to share. He now shares with others how they can respond best given the current
economic opportunities.
I came across him when I was on Amazon looking for a cheap
business book. This book empowered me to step into the life I wanted to live
mentally and practically. In his book Choose Yourself he describes how much the world has changed in relation to the market, jobs and
industries.
He teaches you how to use the changing conditions to your advantage by choosing yourself instead of making yourself eligible to be chosen by others. He brings light to the opportunities we have available to achieve inward and outward success.
He teaches you how to use the changing conditions to your advantage by choosing yourself instead of making yourself eligible to be chosen by others. He brings light to the opportunities we have available to achieve inward and outward success.
History: Promoted seminars for Jim Rohn, neuro-linguistic programming,
Personal Power series of self-help audios.
Influence: Powerful, life-altering topics on overcoming your
fears, enhancing relationships, persuasive communicating, health, wealth and
energy.
I was introduced to Robbins through a friend who was going
through his training to be a life coach. I’m sure many people have heard of
him-maybe not as much if you are around my age. That is exactly why even
watching one of his videos will blow your mind.
His experience in neuro-linguistic programming (NLP) is the science that backs up his methods of training. He has transformed people’s lives in minutes and lives a life worthy of emulating. I would say his training and words and definitely worth the reading and listening.
His experience in neuro-linguistic programming (NLP) is the science that backs up his methods of training. He has transformed people’s lives in minutes and lives a life worthy of emulating. I would say his training and words and definitely worth the reading and listening.
4 Hour Productivity Guru
Claim to Fame: 4 Hour Work Week, No.1 Bestseller on New York
Time’s bestseller list
History: East Asian Studies at Princeton University, worked sales
at a data storage company, founded successful company BrainQUICKEN that sells nutritional
supplements.
Influence: More productivity in the least amount of time
giving you the freedom to live the life you want.
Another friend introduced me to Tim Ferris and his approach on
quality living: less work, more productivity, and massive amounts of freedom. I
learned how to increase productivity and lessen wasted time to achieve the life
I want. He begins in 4 Hour Work Week talking about the lifestyle I have always
thought was possible: freedom from a workplace, ability to go wherever whenever
and doing in the least amount of time necessary.He teaches you how to turn your dreams into achievable goals and live the life you really dream of. If this sounds like something you desire and think of as impossible, it’s time to think again.
G+: +Tim Ferriss
Twitter: @tferriss
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